RJ Mitte‘s younger sister Lacianne Carriere is remembering her late brother after his death at 34 on Oct. 12. The former child actor shared an emotional tribute to the Breaking Bad star in an Oct. 23 Instagram post that included photos, videos, and a lengthy heartbreaking caption that expressed disbelief.
“There are just no words,” Carriere began the caption. “You were just here.. your strawberry Fanta was still sitting on my coffee table when I got the call. Life hasn’t felt real since then.”
“Rj you were my everything,” she continued. “I just lost my other half. I lost my brother but I also lost my father… Every single aspect of my personality is because of your influence. My music taste, my film taste the video games I love… because of you I am a collector, you taught me that even the smallest piece of paper can be a precious memory later on.”
The 22-year-old went on to mention that “since the phone call” she’s “been sitting around” with Mitte’s “closest people almost every night sharing the craziest stories that could never be said anywhere else.” She continued to call her brother the “life of the party” and the “coolest guy that we all tried to keep up with but never could.”
“We had so much more to do, so many more memories to be shared and I don’t know if my heart can ever be whole again after losing the biggest piece of it,” she added.
Carriere ended her caption with words she imagined Mitte would say to her after the devastating loss and a powerful message of love.
“I know you’re telling me right now that I’ll be okay though I don’t know how I will,” she wrote. “But I promise I’m going to do my hardest and I promise your love will always live through me until the day I see you again. I loved you completely. And you loved me the same. That’s all. The rest is confetti. 💜.”
Mitte, who was best known for playing Walter “Flynn” White Jr. on Breaking Bad, died by suicide in Brownsville. Tex. Just a week before his death, he shared a haunting message about life on the Oct. 5 episode of The Joe Vulpis Podcast . “I live life to the fullest,” he said. “I always try. I have a very finite amount of time.”